Alex:  Saturday nights used to be Janae  putting on her MEOW playlist as we’d try on 3 or 4 outfits before deciding what to wear.  Shelly would pour the drinks and after the buzz kicked in, Griffel would remind us that it was time to order the Uber. We’d dance until about 2 am, come home and make a pizza. It sucked when we ran out of ranch. Sundays were spent recovering, usually watching How I Met Your Mother, or off to the beach to relax and wait for the ocean to take care of our hangovers.  As much fun as that was, I wasn’t getting anywhere on my script! It’s been a couple of months now at my new job and I’m not going to lie, it’s not as easy as I thought it was going to be. Holy tots!  I didn’t know how much time and work went into writing a script.  For the first time I’m working on something I care about. It’s exciting, I’m not complaining, but I’m a little overwhelmed with how much I need to change. I can’t go out or stay up as late during the week because I won’t be productive the next day. One day of slacking and it’s three days of trying to catch up. Being around all of these writers had made me realize that I need to put more time in.  Which leads me to this debacle… My lease is almost up and my plan was to get a place with three of my friends, a cat, and a dog.  But now I’m not so sure. I’ve realized my life has been more ‘fun focused’ rather than ‘work focused’. I’m afraid I will feel left out when I see their pictures on Instagram having fun without me.  I know I’m being a baby. I just want to know it’ll be okay and that I’ll still have friends, even if I live alone.
Nik: It’ll be okay.
Alex: Thank you.
(later)
Alex: Really!? That’s all you’re going to give me?
(laaaater)
Alex: Whatever.
Nik: SORRY, I was busy FINISHING my SCRIPT because I live ALONE and have time and space to FINISH scripts and now I’m going to dinner with a BUNCH of FRIENDS! Yes, you’ll be okay! It’s called growing up and setting boundaries and having a schedule and knowing that if you want to make money as a writer you have to write–not act like you’re still in living in Sellery A.  Now. If it’s financially wise for you to have roomies than you should take that into consideration; you’ll just have to be a little better about setting goals and finding the discipline to achieve them.
Alex: Financially I can afford to live alone. I value my time and know that I need to use it more productively.
Nik: I think that you’ll be really happy in your own space.  I also think you’ll enjoy the time you get to spend with your friends even more. Worst case scenario, you die alone. Kidding. You can always get roommates again if you hate it.
Alex: You’re right. Thanks for always putting things into perspective when I can’t see them clearly.
Nik: You got it lil betch.

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Holy shitballs a year has passed? Wtf?! Happy Anniversary amentoramuse!

Nik: Congrats Alex! The first year in LA is the hardest – they say if you make it a year, you’ll make it.
Alex: It’s a little freaky how fast it went. Remember when we first hung out on the rooftop at Hotel Erwin and you wore SPF 50 and a hat?
Nik: 55. Yep. Feels kind of like yesterday, but kind of not. So much has happened since then.
Alex: I know! I took my first writing class.
Nik: I finished a pilot. Got new agents.
Alex: I had an internship at Warner Bros. Records and got a job offer from Epic.
Nik: BUT you nabbed your first TV gig on The 100!
Alex: And YOU got staffed on Mozart in the Jungle. Which by the way, looks freaking awesome!
Nik: Dreams coming true. You’re in Hollywood baby.
Alex: Oh, I got my car towed. Over $600 in fines, that was fun.
Nik: I had a skin cancer scare and got that little f$ck$r cut off my nose. Still have a mole hole.
Alex: You can hardly see it. I went skydiving and had sex in Yosemite National Park.
Nik: I had sex upside down and sideways.
Alex: I want to have sex upside down and sideways!
Nik: It’s fun. I watched friends get married, have babies, get divorced.
Alex: My first friend got married! I was a bridesmaid, she’s preggers now. Life’s weird.
Nik: You are.
Alex: You are.
Nik: I did my first sweat lodge.
Alex: I met Red Eagle and learned about my spirit guides.
Nik: Oh, yeah – I still want to do that with you.
Alex: We have a lot of things we need to do together.
Nik: We will. Since you made it your first year…
Alex: I’ll make it a bunch more… I have learned so much from you and I continue to everytime we are together. I can’t thank the universe, or my stepmom enough for bringing us together. I think my abs are even a bit stronger from meeting you, since we laugh so gol’ darn much. I still can’t get over the fact that a year has gone by!
Nik: Cheers lil betch.
Alex: Let’s go drink.

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